Beyond all lies, all allegations No one knows what it’s like to be a bad man To be hated, ignored l, lost in the echoes, Hidden beneath the debris of broken dreams
No one knows, my dreams were never that empy Nurtured by an empty apathetic conscience. There’s no one, who’ll lend their hand, give me hope And Say, ‘I’m not telling lies’
I look through the glass, beyond reality False solidarity echoes in my bleak eyes In truth, I know I never emerge, never return Yet, foolishly waiting for the day that never comes
So now as the stars shine down on you Know that all I’ve ever had was just a glimpse from afar So now as lay on the green grass neath the blue sky, Know that, I die with a void in me beyond my blank eyes.
Neath the roaring bloodred sky I found myself battered and torn Thunder pleads my liberation guilty As mother nature mourns her lost son
Woundless pain embrace my body Trapped in realms vile, i’m the derelict Stripped off the warmth of light’s cradle Illusion or nightmare an eternal conflict
Cascading pillars of a desolate faith Shudder the credence deemed pure Vengeance reeks havoc in human flesh This world now a seed of my hatred
You claim with pride that paradise is mine When your faith is built on pillars of lies The path to salvation draped in blood Where was god, When my innocence died???
Like a lucid dream, reality became a mirage She appeared to me like an angel, skin glowing in the sun Clad in the most beautiful shade of blue Hypnotized, I stood fixated by her black bewitching eyes
Her face, captivating like the piercing radiant moon Hair, mesmeric like the sublime night sky She is a tryst of your dreams and desire A gift, a beautiful gift from mother nature.
She hails from the dreams, your mind feeds A mysterious conjuration of perfection But all this fades away as the void in me takes over And I’m left estranged in my body without a soul.
My heart, an oblivious stone My mind, a pond of stagnant thoughts Emotions, a garland of rotten roses on my neck My eyes, see nothing but the darkness in this gray world
This apathy, it masticates me, dictates my existence Devoid of feelings, oppressing urges and thoughts Thus she’ll be just another beauty, this beast never loved This world an enigma, this beast never cared about.
This apathy, it’ll never go away And I’ll never know what it is like…………to feel.
There’s a tree outside my window, dead and grey Stands neath a dark sky, leaves dried, trunks freyed What storm withered its life? Ive always wondered? Was it the mockery it faced from the greener side? put asunder
The Sun shines brightly yet the sky is dark Water flows unbound in the river, yet the ground is covered in snow What brought out his eternal winter? stuck in an infinite loop…… Was it deception, betrayal or just plain death of hope?
Perhaps nobody would ever know.
There is now a road leading from the riverside The tree, all lonely, stands at its end Where once a garden bloomed in red flowers Now, only a lonely yellow rose silently cowers
Theres thorns on the path, this tree walked Dead birds on the ground, No lullabies A lonely raven circles over the tree as in the wind it sways My sanctity, devoid of peace….how long have I been away?
Nothing unknown….
Wheres the love that once blossomed here? Why are my feet riddled in thorns? dripping blood. Is this a punishment or the curse of a dying mother? Clouds gather…..the end is perhaps near, very near
The winds are now vicious, Theres restlessness all around The stagnant rivers overflowing ferociously A storms brewing, the yellow rose still cowers
I looked outside the window again This time, its calm and quiet Look towards my doorway……. Burnt black rose petals at their feet, pale and grey
Who are you that stands in my doorway? Make your intentions known…….. Have you come to resurrect the tree? Or leave it to suffer till its finally free???
Herod’s Diary 